In Dec 2007 I had what I can only describe in words as an enlightened experience of unconditional love, Enlightenment meaning a deep understanding and realisation there is an end to suffering. A sense of deep inner peace and calm flowed through me. I realised once you release judgements, expectations and conditions from yourself, you truly feel the love of existence.
I instantly phoned my Mum and apologised for the many expectations and conditions I had on her alone. We had a long talk and I acknowledged she had only ever showered me with unconditional love. We both cried.
It’s been almost two years since that realisation and in that time I have had many more. I have also written many, many pages of words and documented my daily experiences as I work at staying present in that beautiful place of love. I will attempt through this site and videos I record to give the best possible account of what has changed in me and how that has affected my actions and world I live in.
Many people in life say things like “know thy self”! “Know who you really are”? “Go inside”, “do the inner work”, “get to know yourself”. I have heard those words so many times and I have read many books over the past 12 years which talk about getting to know the real you… “Get to know the real you”!! I would reply “I am the real me”. “What do they mean go inside? Go inside my flat”!!
These words lead to very hard questions to answer about you, especially on top of daily obstacles to pay the bills. Self evaluation is not easy. I have dabbled in acting which is all about looking at yourself and others in depth. I am aware firsthand how difficult it is to know and take responsibility of yourself and your actions. I’ve failed many times before I’ve ever cracked it. But failure is part of the process and becomes part of the fun.
I will cover many topics in this site and share with you my experiences and interpretations from my view point only. We are all on our own individual journey; if at any time you feel that I am telling you what you should do, please try not to interpret it that way, as this is not my intention. I genuinely do not want anybody to be me or agree with everything I am saying or put me in a higher or better regard than you in any way.
I am not seeking gratification or recognition. I am only sharing with you who I am right now and in turn if that allows you to be you then that’s great. I am not seeking an end result nor have any expectation on you or anybody else. We are all as great, beautiful and magnificent as each other. Some of us have just forgotten that fact. The way we treat and allow ourselves to be treated is clear evidence. We are constantly changing and evolving like the seasons and cycles of life. Even in the periods we may not enjoy there is still a constant of greatness and beauty. It never disappears; it’s just sometimes we fail to see it.
Love is running parallel with us constantly in every single moment. Once we realise this for ourselves and the curtain opens, life becomes truly wonderful. The beauty is, we need no one and no-thing to feel the magnificence of unconditional love. And by needing no one and no thing you are and have everything. “Oh the dichotomy!”.
“Perhaps love is the process of my leading you gently back to yourself. Not whom I want you to be, but who you are.”
- Antoine de Saint-Exupery
Hope you find time and enjoy sitting on the sofa with me.
Love Simon (I’m all loved up)
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